"For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven:
a time to be born, and a time to die;
a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
a time to kill, and a time to heal;
a time to break down, and a time to build up;
a time to weep, and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
a time to seek, and a time to lose;
a time to keep, and a time to cast away,
a time to tear, and a time to sew;
a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
a time to love, and a time to hate;
a time for war, and a time for peace."
-Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
Last year was definitely a year of breaking down--
breaking down my pride, my aim for perfectionism, my desire to please everyone, my notion of being able to do everything, and my idea that I had to like everything that is placed in my life.
I have instead learned the hard way that--
I am not good at everything (obvious but incredible that I assumed this with every job), I am flawed for my own good, I will never please everyone, I am human with grand limitations, and I do not have to pretend to like everything to justify God's sovereignty--He promised to be with me but never promised that I will like everything that comes my way, including this current job. He is still good.
2018.
10 years since I graduated from high school...what.
9 years since I decided on an English and French major.
8 years since I embarked on my first trip to Africa.
7 years since I flew home after spending a semester in Paris.
6 years since I graduated college and began my career in education.
5 years since I went on my first solo trip to Africa to teach in Tunisia.
4 years since I left my classroom and moved to Dallas.
2 years since I started my grad program in Cambridge.
1 year since I got my masters and began my job in Boston.
Praying that this year will be one of building up.
Physically, emotionally, socially, and spiritually.
Lord, please take the wheel.
Lead me into deeper waters with a faith that will carry me through.
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