Monday, May 17, 2010

still i will say

Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name.

Funny how a song that you've been singing for so long suddenly becomes praise one day.

Dead words come to life.
Instead of seeing words, you feel it.
You see flashbacks of your own life that shout each chorus and verse--the pain, the joy,everything. A father who's hurting, the death of a friend, someone you let go, the words of a sister, the hands of your church members, a heartfelt letter, your mother's tears..
Suddenly, you're praising. really praising the Father who gave it all.
you're free.

Oh daddy, my heart hurts right now. I sang these words when I was happy and didn't understand exactly what I was saying to you then. I've been singing empty words to you, and now that I'm beginning to see a glimpse of this "darkness" and taste a bit of this "pain," I'm scared. Please forgive me and my little faith.
But Lord, you reminded me today that you have plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11), so I'm going to hold onto that promise, even if it means letting go of the things that I held so dear. You're all that I have now, and I have nowhere else to turn. I am nothing without you, so please, don't ever let me go. You gave, and you took away, but my heart tells me that "God, you are still so good."