Saturday, August 13, 2011

Refreshing News


It rained in Dallas today. A few months ago this would not have been a big deal, but after an entire summer without rain, I've never been so excited to see the dark clouds roll in yesterday or been so happy to hear the downpour that took me by surprise early this morning. After weeks yearning for even a SPRINKLE of rain, God sent buckets. It was as if the clogged faucet upstairs was finally fixed and months of stored water had just been hurled down from the sky. Sans umbrella, I ran out to the car as I wrinkled my face and grinned with glee, letting the water droplets hit my nose and freely roll down my cheeks. So refreshing today was. God is faithful. Just like in the days of Elijah, He answers prayers and waters the earth.

On that same note, I received news earlier this week of how God is continuing to water the plants across the globe, in beloved Cameroon. He is growing the seeds that He has sown there last summer. What a joy it was to hear about the team's safe return and to see my beautiful host family through the pictures that were posted. Oh my, how they have grown! Here's a little follow-up:

(L to R) Justin delivering my care package, Billy-Brunzie with what now appears
to be a full head of hair, Chelsea a few inches taller than the last time I saw him

2010. Here I am with my then-pregnant host mom Lucy

2011. Lucy today with her new baby Faith!!

2010. We planted non-native fruit seeds in Lucy's garden last summer

2011. Paul took a picture of its progress today! Praise God :)

Though the team was a lot smaller this year, those who went were able to share with the Wimbum adults a recording of the Kande Story, a story that educates about HIV/AIDS. What an amazing opportunity. I still remember the cries and funeral songs coming from a home in the village last summer. Even within the two short weeks that I was there, I would come across a family mourning the death of a young mother who succumbed to the virus.The world is broken and hurting, but God is moving and working. I find hope in that tonight, and I will rest in that tomorrow. I praise You Lord, for the Go-ers, the Senders, and the Intercessors this year. When I see that healthy baby and that growing plant, I see nothing but Your faithfulness. And I thank You that you care for us even more than a few plant seeds.
"I planted, Apollos watered, but God gave the growth. So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but only God who gives the growth. He who plants and he who waters are one, and each will receive his wages according to his labor. For we are God’s fellow workers. You are God’s field, God’s building." -1 Cor 3:6-9

Goodnight, and happy Sunday :]

Saturday, August 6, 2011

Soli Deo Gloria

Frustration.
I felt lots of it while completing just a few simple tasks today.
Nothing out of the ordinary...simply folding papers and preparing envelopes.
But I was little miss cranky pants who wanted to go home and rest.
I kept thinking about what else I could've been doing.
It's frightening to see how full of sin I am
and how quickly I can fall back.
Changing.
I noticed my attitude shifts depending on what I'm doing
not whom I'm doing it for.
While I joyfully taught Bible stories to children under the Oklahoma sun last month,
folding pamphlets for next week's worship service seemed like such a chore today.
If only I saw each task as a pleasing sacrifice to the one and only.
Would I be just as joyful serving my family by taking the trash out
as I would be in babysitting the little ones from church?
Jesus said, "One who is faithful in very little is also faithful in much" (Luke 16:10),
but was I really being faithful in the little task that was given me
when I was grumbling in my heart? sigh.
Dear heart,
why so prone to forget?
why so prone to rebel?
why so selfish in all your ways?
Unchanging.
Jesus.
I need to cling to You.
Daily. Moment by Moment.
Every day I am tempted.
Tempted to take the crown
fully knowing that its weight will crush me.
Lord of my life, help me. Forgive me. Heal me.
"So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God." -Cor. 10:31

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Hunger



The breakfast biscuit that I devoured this morning
isn't sitting too well in my stomach anymore.
While I hungrily scanned the menu, little did I know that thousands of children
were starving to death in this war-torn country alone.

Yes, Texas has been going through a drought.
It has been over 100 degrees here for as long as I can remember.
I sigh every time I step out into the heat
and groan when the a/c doesn't exceed its potential.

Yet, I'm still eating. I'm still sheltered. I'm still breathing.
But in Somalia?
They're starving. They're homeless. They're struggling for life.
What is a slight inconvenience to me is a life-threatening menace to them.
How much does it take for me to realize that I don't deserve the life that I have?
That it is only by the grace of God that I'm not over there starving to death?

News like this comes up all the time, but this one hit especially hard just now.
And it very well should. All the time.
My heart aches. I am so ashamed.
My head is already days ahead worrying about nonsense
when there are others who can't fathom living another hour.

Wisdom in spending. Diligence in prayer.
Humility at all costs.
God help us.
God help me.